Love, Why do I Feel It When I Hate it So?

I have a problem. I'm in love with some one. But she just sees me as a friend. And if I tell her she is bound to turn me down. What should I do? And what makes it worse is she is my closest friend. And I'm bi while she's straight. I love her so much. When ever we're apart my head is filled with thoughts of her. I can never stop thinking about her. I can't tell my family(very closed minded), I can't tell my friends. And me and her are always talking about this anime called The tyrant who fall in love. And I actually feel like Morinaga. she is my Senpai and I feel like Morinaga because I'm in love with my senpai and she will most likely not love me back. I just plan on following my feelings. I really just tell some one about her before I do. Skinandesu senpai.Follow this link to read the Tyrant Who Fall In Love.

Hear My Voice

Hear My Voice is the title of a song I came up with. And this link will take you to me singing it. That is all.

My Thoughts

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singingfox2@gmail.com
that is all

My Voice

To see the video follow this link. enjoy.

E-Mail - singingfox2@gmail.com

Silver Stars and Black Scars

On Friday September 2nd I wrote down on a piece of paper what is written below. For after the paper was finished it was imedietly hidden from family and friends. For I wanted not for them to know the fear I was feeling when I remembered these dreams. And realized my destiny, my future. People have always told me to reach for the stars. Little did I know that it was exactly what I had to do. I had to reach for the stars, go beyond the farthest light, and meet the universe once more...

   "Kowai yo

I just remembered that when I was little I used to have these dreams where there was nothing. There wasn't a single flaw in the black screen which covered my eyes. And when I reached my hand out it was like there was something so smooth and silky but it also felt like there was nothing there at all.

   I now believe I saw the universe in those dreams, and it proves that the entire existence of everything has revolved around contradictions.

   Those dreams

I feared them

But

I never wanted them to end."

Do not mock me for my life is every story, and like Soul Eater the place we call hell is inside the human mind. Kowai yo, tasukete.

Random Art 二

Here is some more random garbage, and 二 means 2.

• This world full of love, full of hate, it just aint great. Its a contradictory how much i love you, and you hate me.
• I love you so bad my heart starts pounding and I feel real sad. Because I'm just so glad to be near you and have a chance like this.
• Batteries dying, Honey you been lying. You said you loved me before, now I aint too sure.
• The stars are time, and time is beauty even though it is a curse.
• You said you hated me all those many years ago, and now you come back and say you always loved me before. I'm so confused I rejected you, but then I see the light in your eyes. I see where the truth resides. I take your hand and you take mine. We smile together, never again to cry. For this feeling is no lie.
• I have my own dreams, but I can never scream. My nerves are shaking, my heart is racing. I'm insecure in this world, my life's at a hard turn. My love is not near. I feel insecure, I feel like being loved. But I'm in a way, where the only way for me to feel love is to know I'm respected. And gaining respect in my home is just bellow maybe never and just above impossible.

That's all for now. If you liked it, good. If you didn't maybe you leave a hate comment.

Random Art

This is just some of the random garbage I come up with in my spare time. Hope you like it, and I don't mind if you hate it.

• Keep me close to your heart, so that you may influence a better part of me. You may be the one to bring out this stone cold heart, and melt the ice which has crystallized around it. And wrap your chains of healing around it. Steel away this broken heart to help me rebuild - no - create it.
• Everywhere I look I see your face. It was hard to resist, but you took my heart  and crushed it like a little birds egg. Because it was mine, because I had the world in my hands.But then you stole my heart. You made me drop my world, and you tour my life apart. You are so cruel. To change one's ways, only to send them down the wrong path. I loved you or so I thought. It's quite the contradiction, I was in love with you but full of hate for you. But I would Always try to get along, but I kept getting stomped on. When it comes to you I realy wish I knew, when I'd start giving up on you.
• Tears. The river of hate. The fountain of love. Coming out through my eyes. But spilling from my heart.
• Let the snow fall; the clouds need to breath;  I started falling; But you still folowed me; We are the rule breakers; But we are the world makers; Always have and always will be still; different from the rest of the world.
• What choice do I have; What voice do I have; What noise can I make; What road can I take; Everything around me is controlled; By everybody but me.
• My secret life; It streches across the world; You can run; You can hide; But you'll always find me; For my heart is everywhere you look; Hearts dying; Daggers flying; Everyone has a place to go; And I am yours.
• Choose...; Live a short life; Or!; Die a never ending death; Meaning!;  Live in the now even though it doesn't last; Or!; Live in the day of tomorrow by fearing mistakes and misfortune that never arise; Live in the moment, because there's always a new one. 

This is just random stuff I sometimes come up with. People come up with stuff like this too, they just don't write it down. I hope you enjoyed it, and if you didn't... What am I supposed to care? It's not like this garbage is going to impact my life.