Me? In Reality!

I want to tell everyone or at least someone about how i fell about things, that is the point of this blog. But I am not sure if it is possible to tell you everything, oh well. After all I have a lifetime to tell you the truth. So let me start here for now. Me in reality.

I have this thing called a perky mode. It is when I basically go PINK!!! Or that's what I call it. And when I'm in perky mode my "Catch Phrase" is, "You can tell me of any problem, and I will come up with a solution that will have everyone smiling in the end!" Does that say PINK!!! or what? And when I'm in perky mode I'm smiling all the time, because in reality it is the only time I get to smile. Anyway, being in perky mode can be kind of fun, you see in perky mode I put out my best effort. It even makes gym class fun. Truth is, it isn't that hard to smile. A smile can do anything, but it can't always do everything. I guess you could call it a win lose situation. If you smiled as much as I did this year your cheeks would hert at the end of the day. Tee-hee. (P.S.- I should probably say this, I'm in perky mode right now. Sometimes it just turns on on it's own.) Okay, that is all.

Time To Explain

I said I would explain later, well its later now. The reason why I can't say I love anything is because of this. There is only one thing in this entire world that I fear. That thing is my own heart, hearing it beating again and again drives me crazy. And since love resonates from the heart( or that is what I hear ) than it is true that it is impossible for me to experience. And I haven't so far so I don't think it will ever happen. Oh and the reason why I said I'll have to live with myself is because... I meant it like this. No one ever will truly understand what I'm feeling because no matter what I will always be alone. I say that because everybody only has one true home, that home is their body. And since there is only one soul per person that means no matter what we are always alone. I think friends are just substitutes for having actual... Oh never mind it's too hard to explain. Oh well, that is all for now. Bye- Bye.

V6 = Cuties

I found a band that has really great music, and is from my "Country Crush". They are called V6 , and they are a boy band that I think look really cute. They have songs like Rainbow, Change The World , Brand New World, and more. My favorite song out of all the ones they sing its Change The World, because it was the first of their songs I came across and It led me to them and I fell in love with their music. Well I actually didn't fall in love, for me that's impossible. I will never know love, because... The reason will be revealed later. They are really great, on a list from 1to 10, I give them a 20! There is no better band in the world with better music than them. And their dancing and looks aren't too shabby either.( Meaning- Perfect and NO More than Perfect) I really wish I could meet them and sing one of their songs with them. But its a boy band and I'm a girl, none the less I'm from different country, I have absolutely no shot at anything when you get right down to it. Oh well, I guess I have no choice but to live with myself, because... also to be explained later. That is all.

Fear... Anyone Can Overcome It...

Just smile!

When someone is afraid of something, what do they usually do? They try to concur their fears, to put a stop to it. While other people could also be telling others to look on the bright side. But those can be awfully hard, depending on who you are. But I have come up with away that will work every time. When you are afraid of something your heart pumps really fast, your heart does the same thing when you are getting a real thrill out of something. So when you are facing your fear, at that exact moment... Just put a smile on your face! Laugh at yourself and think, " It is funny when it isn't me." Think of it as your not afraid because it isn't you. No!!! Think of it this way, " Anyone can Reject and Overcome their fears, but not Everyone can. But not Everyone can Embrace the fear, Hold it in their arms so they can store it in their hearts. But Everyone has a Chance of getting a Thrill out of their own fear." My own words. See all you need to do is smile and feel your own fear, let your racing heart take over, get a thrill out of your quickly beating heart. I guess you could say it is the same is standing up to your fears, from a different perspective. That is how come I can smile at the face of death. And look as though I enjoy the Idea of growing up. I can smile at anything and it can look sincere. I guess you could say I'm pretty messed up, if you do, I agree. 100%. That is all.

It Means Nothing If There Is No Connection

"Live as though you are going to die tomorrow, But plan as if you're going to live forever." My friend LeAnna came up with that saying and it makes more than a world of sense. But somewhere in the W.W.W. I found this saying "Deanna" came up with. It is, "When it is all over, Our lives will make sense." Now I am less afraid thanks to reading this. Afraid of death I mean. That is all.

Question for all Hypocrites!!!

Here is the situation I'm in. My parents tell me I  need to change my attitude when all I'm doing is using really mild sarcasm. And get this, when they say that they are yelling and giving me an even bigger attitude than what I ever gave them. Has anyone ever heard the saying Practice What You Preach? Because they have and I still get treated like garbage. This is the ultimate sarcasm right here telling your only daughter to change her attitude when she is dealing with the biggest hypocrites she knows. Them! So I have a question I would like everyone that reads this to answer. What do we do about hypocrites like the ones described above? I would very much like to know. A really big question yet no answer. Yet anyway. Thank you for your time.

Watch This...

I found a new anime TV series. It's called Samurai X  here is a link.
Samurai X Sn:1 Ep:1 

this link will lead to season one, episode one.

I'd say it is for a person who really loves anime and enjoys japan and its history. I barely know a thing about japan's history but I absolutely love it. It is a great story. And no matter what I watch I learn something new every time I find a new show, no matter what it is about. Because I pay attention to all the little details. Now no story seams to thrill me anymore because story's are so predictable. Well this is a good show so everyone should watch it. It doesn't have the best picture quality but it has a story line that cancels that out.

Live and Learn...

Living is easy.But what we do when we are living is what is difficult.

I came up with this. What do you think? It means, it doesn't take much for our hearts to beat but when we are using our beating hearts we tend to get carried away and think we can do anything because some things are easy and simple, like breathing and we try more complex stuff only to be disappointed in our ability.

Love...

I believe i figured out a perfect definition for what love is. Here it is.

     Love; 1) A dream or nightmare of which you fantasize of the possibility's only for those dreams to be crushed 2) It can also a simple and easy thing to deal with, when one can talk to a crush with ease and no difficulty is implied 3)It is like spices, hot on our tongues yet we beg for more, the "flavor" is satisfactory but the pain comes with it no matter how hard you try.

Of course, this is the three definitions of which i have come up with. Except, not all of them are true for everyone. it depends allot on the person you are evaluating. For different people will believe different things. Because they have different experiences. For i wrote these three from all of my experiences. And with just three boyfriends, you have to admit that these definitions have to mach up in some way. Stop and think before you judge my words. In some way everyone can relate to these words. I know what I'm saying if i am putting on the world wide web. It's either that or I'm just down right brave for admitting it. Anyway,think before you act rash, this is just my opinion after all. But i want to see how close my opinion is to your thinking. please tell me, I'd very much like to know.

Generations... Their Beginnings And Ends...

Every one is always saying things to get other people off their backs. One of these things is, "We are the next generation..." But I have a question for all who have said this to the people who were once able to say it. When does one generation end and another begin? Or do they all just merge in the end? That is all I wish to ask of you, Is for you to answer these questions. A really big question, yet no answer.

Why... So Many Lies...

What is wrong with the human race? Do we enjoy it when another is hurt? do we enjoy it when another suffers? We are always giving and taking lies. I for one am tired of all these lies. For it a crime to hurt another no matter what the reason. Yet I've been hurt every second I live. Because every new second brings every new realization that I have been lied to. We are children always being told to never judge a book by it's cover by our parents, and then they turn around and stereotype our friends without a second thought. It is almost like we need other people of our own species to feel pane in order for us to live. But I don't like how we do that, why dose someone have to suffer? We make mistakes I know, we are only human after all. And I hate to have that excuse to lean on. I want something that is less insulting to some one like me. I am not one who enjoys a flimsy surface to stand on. I hate... I shouldn't say it, but I will say this. I'm tired of the way we live, is it the only way we know how to live? If not can everyone please try to change it? I'd say please, but it gets you nowhere in life. That is why there is no point in saying it, for it is simply begging. I hate how half of hat i say has to be lies in order for me to get off a little easier. I don't like lies.