Pretty!

Isn't The dress in this picture just the cutest thing ever?! Plus it really lifts my spirits looking at since recently my life feels so traumatic lately. High school and more is all. Anyway, i just really think that it's pretty. So pretty that I WANT ONE!!!!!! Happy Holidays everyone!

Woo-Hoo

Tsukiko is now on Facebook. here's the link to me Wall.Thank you. Plus i'm kind of new to facebook so i might not know how to work certain things out. anyway...*:3 and i just figured out you need to be signed into facebook to view it.

Idea

I came up with this little jingle about Reese's cups. It would be great advertisement but annoying if you hear it for the 20th time. *:3  here is the link and enjoy.

Love, Why do I Feel It When I Hate it So?

I have a problem. I'm in love with some one. But she just sees me as a friend. And if I tell her she is bound to turn me down. What should I do? And what makes it worse is she is my closest friend. And I'm bi while she's straight. I love her so much. When ever we're apart my head is filled with thoughts of her. I can never stop thinking about her. I can't tell my family(very closed minded), I can't tell my friends. And me and her are always talking about this anime called The tyrant who fall in love. And I actually feel like Morinaga. she is my Senpai and I feel like Morinaga because I'm in love with my senpai and she will most likely not love me back. I just plan on following my feelings. I really just tell some one about her before I do. Skinandesu senpai.Follow this link to read the Tyrant Who Fall In Love.

Hear My Voice

Hear My Voice is the title of a song I came up with. And this link will take you to me singing it. That is all.

My Thoughts

Here's the link If it isn't working please inform me. My email is
singingfox2@gmail.com
that is all

My Voice

To see the video follow this link. enjoy.

E-Mail - singingfox2@gmail.com

Silver Stars and Black Scars

On Friday September 2nd I wrote down on a piece of paper what is written below. For after the paper was finished it was imedietly hidden from family and friends. For I wanted not for them to know the fear I was feeling when I remembered these dreams. And realized my destiny, my future. People have always told me to reach for the stars. Little did I know that it was exactly what I had to do. I had to reach for the stars, go beyond the farthest light, and meet the universe once more...

   "Kowai yo

I just remembered that when I was little I used to have these dreams where there was nothing. There wasn't a single flaw in the black screen which covered my eyes. And when I reached my hand out it was like there was something so smooth and silky but it also felt like there was nothing there at all.

   I now believe I saw the universe in those dreams, and it proves that the entire existence of everything has revolved around contradictions.

   Those dreams

I feared them

But

I never wanted them to end."

Do not mock me for my life is every story, and like Soul Eater the place we call hell is inside the human mind. Kowai yo, tasukete.

Random Art 二

Here is some more random garbage, and 二 means 2.

• This world full of love, full of hate, it just aint great. Its a contradictory how much i love you, and you hate me.
• I love you so bad my heart starts pounding and I feel real sad. Because I'm just so glad to be near you and have a chance like this.
• Batteries dying, Honey you been lying. You said you loved me before, now I aint too sure.
• The stars are time, and time is beauty even though it is a curse.
• You said you hated me all those many years ago, and now you come back and say you always loved me before. I'm so confused I rejected you, but then I see the light in your eyes. I see where the truth resides. I take your hand and you take mine. We smile together, never again to cry. For this feeling is no lie.
• I have my own dreams, but I can never scream. My nerves are shaking, my heart is racing. I'm insecure in this world, my life's at a hard turn. My love is not near. I feel insecure, I feel like being loved. But I'm in a way, where the only way for me to feel love is to know I'm respected. And gaining respect in my home is just bellow maybe never and just above impossible.

That's all for now. If you liked it, good. If you didn't maybe you leave a hate comment.

Random Art

This is just some of the random garbage I come up with in my spare time. Hope you like it, and I don't mind if you hate it.

• Keep me close to your heart, so that you may influence a better part of me. You may be the one to bring out this stone cold heart, and melt the ice which has crystallized around it. And wrap your chains of healing around it. Steel away this broken heart to help me rebuild - no - create it.
• Everywhere I look I see your face. It was hard to resist, but you took my heart  and crushed it like a little birds egg. Because it was mine, because I had the world in my hands.But then you stole my heart. You made me drop my world, and you tour my life apart. You are so cruel. To change one's ways, only to send them down the wrong path. I loved you or so I thought. It's quite the contradiction, I was in love with you but full of hate for you. But I would Always try to get along, but I kept getting stomped on. When it comes to you I realy wish I knew, when I'd start giving up on you.
• Tears. The river of hate. The fountain of love. Coming out through my eyes. But spilling from my heart.
• Let the snow fall; the clouds need to breath;  I started falling; But you still folowed me; We are the rule breakers; But we are the world makers; Always have and always will be still; different from the rest of the world.
• What choice do I have; What voice do I have; What noise can I make; What road can I take; Everything around me is controlled; By everybody but me.
• My secret life; It streches across the world; You can run; You can hide; But you'll always find me; For my heart is everywhere you look; Hearts dying; Daggers flying; Everyone has a place to go; And I am yours.
• Choose...; Live a short life; Or!; Die a never ending death; Meaning!;  Live in the now even though it doesn't last; Or!; Live in the day of tomorrow by fearing mistakes and misfortune that never arise; Live in the moment, because there's always a new one. 

This is just random stuff I sometimes come up with. People come up with stuff like this too, they just don't write it down. I hope you enjoyed it, and if you didn't... What am I supposed to care? It's not like this garbage is going to impact my life.

Contradictory Theory

I hate life. why is that the only way to live. Right now I'm thinking that if it is all going to end why do we try so hard, why do we care about our clothes and hair. It's all going to mean nothing in the end. We put so much effort into our lives and we try so hard for it all to be taken away. Death can take only seconds, while it takes us years to perfect the life which is stolen from us. I want to be somebody who can surpass their parents and tell them they had nothing to do with me being the success in this family( I should probably tell you this now, my parents are the only people I hate that I will never forgive.) when it will mean very little in the end because what is the point if no one remembers your greatness. The whole point of life is to learn and to live. But, it's because of life that we have to die. A fear that plagues everyone, no one is safe from this disease. I hate how life itself is a contradiction. You want so much, but in the end you realize you had so little. Even when you gave it your all.

More Like People Whisperer

This is Cessar Millan Walking his pack.

Recently I watched this show called Dog Whisperer. In watching this show I realized that people and dogs can be so similar even though we are so different. I hate how life seems like it has to be one big contradiction. I saw myself in so many of the dogs on that show, and I found a little more peace of mind than I already had. You see everyone has peace of mind they just don't realize it is or they keep quiet about it. I don't get out all that often, and when school  time comes around I take advantage of it to lose some of the pent up energy that I have. That is also how I mess up when I try to make friends, for it is because of this energy that I come on to strong. Often dogs seem to misbehave because they don't get enough exercise, I also do some crazy things because I easily get shaken up and have no other source of release. You see, people sometimes treat dogs like a piece of garbage that they can just throw away. But what they don't realize is how much a dog is like a human, but it is still wrong to treat a dog like a human, because they are animals after all. So Dog Whisperer is a good show to watch, and we can always learn something from anything.

The American Dream

What is the American dream I wonder. Whatever, no matter what it was i believe the Age of the American dream is over. Why this topic you wonder. Well I saw an advertisement asking me "Is the American dream dead?" and that got me thinking. How long ago was it when all we ever needed to lift ourselves up out of the dirt of society was to think these three words, "the American dream" it wasn't yesterday I can tell you that much. Our world is in a state of insecurity, and to quote dog whisperer "it is never a good state to show affection in" And to translate that to make me point. The age of the American dream is indeed over, but it isn't dead. we are now in a state of insecurity of which we have yet to choose, choose the fate of our children, and their children, even our very lives. As a freshman this sort of speech pops up all the time. The point is, in this day and age we have to be careful about our moves or else we could end up in a bad place. Although some will not agree with me and say the American dream is still an active thing. whoever they are the are hung up in the past, I mean I'm all for the classics and the basics but unlike yesterday and the day before that continuing on for years we have to make our move. in this unstable state we are going to have to take matters in our own hands because not only is Americas state at risk but whatever happens will also affect the world. have we ever thought about how our desitions affect so many more people in this world? Even those who have nothing to do with America. My point is simple our motives now will affect the future of the world.

Me? In Reality!

I want to tell everyone or at least someone about how i fell about things, that is the point of this blog. But I am not sure if it is possible to tell you everything, oh well. After all I have a lifetime to tell you the truth. So let me start here for now. Me in reality.

I have this thing called a perky mode. It is when I basically go PINK!!! Or that's what I call it. And when I'm in perky mode my "Catch Phrase" is, "You can tell me of any problem, and I will come up with a solution that will have everyone smiling in the end!" Does that say PINK!!! or what? And when I'm in perky mode I'm smiling all the time, because in reality it is the only time I get to smile. Anyway, being in perky mode can be kind of fun, you see in perky mode I put out my best effort. It even makes gym class fun. Truth is, it isn't that hard to smile. A smile can do anything, but it can't always do everything. I guess you could call it a win lose situation. If you smiled as much as I did this year your cheeks would hert at the end of the day. Tee-hee. (P.S.- I should probably say this, I'm in perky mode right now. Sometimes it just turns on on it's own.) Okay, that is all.

Time To Explain

I said I would explain later, well its later now. The reason why I can't say I love anything is because of this. There is only one thing in this entire world that I fear. That thing is my own heart, hearing it beating again and again drives me crazy. And since love resonates from the heart( or that is what I hear ) than it is true that it is impossible for me to experience. And I haven't so far so I don't think it will ever happen. Oh and the reason why I said I'll have to live with myself is because... I meant it like this. No one ever will truly understand what I'm feeling because no matter what I will always be alone. I say that because everybody only has one true home, that home is their body. And since there is only one soul per person that means no matter what we are always alone. I think friends are just substitutes for having actual... Oh never mind it's too hard to explain. Oh well, that is all for now. Bye- Bye.

V6 = Cuties

I found a band that has really great music, and is from my "Country Crush". They are called V6 , and they are a boy band that I think look really cute. They have songs like Rainbow, Change The World , Brand New World, and more. My favorite song out of all the ones they sing its Change The World, because it was the first of their songs I came across and It led me to them and I fell in love with their music. Well I actually didn't fall in love, for me that's impossible. I will never know love, because... The reason will be revealed later. They are really great, on a list from 1to 10, I give them a 20! There is no better band in the world with better music than them. And their dancing and looks aren't too shabby either.( Meaning- Perfect and NO More than Perfect) I really wish I could meet them and sing one of their songs with them. But its a boy band and I'm a girl, none the less I'm from different country, I have absolutely no shot at anything when you get right down to it. Oh well, I guess I have no choice but to live with myself, because... also to be explained later. That is all.

Fear... Anyone Can Overcome It...

Just smile!

When someone is afraid of something, what do they usually do? They try to concur their fears, to put a stop to it. While other people could also be telling others to look on the bright side. But those can be awfully hard, depending on who you are. But I have come up with away that will work every time. When you are afraid of something your heart pumps really fast, your heart does the same thing when you are getting a real thrill out of something. So when you are facing your fear, at that exact moment... Just put a smile on your face! Laugh at yourself and think, " It is funny when it isn't me." Think of it as your not afraid because it isn't you. No!!! Think of it this way, " Anyone can Reject and Overcome their fears, but not Everyone can. But not Everyone can Embrace the fear, Hold it in their arms so they can store it in their hearts. But Everyone has a Chance of getting a Thrill out of their own fear." My own words. See all you need to do is smile and feel your own fear, let your racing heart take over, get a thrill out of your quickly beating heart. I guess you could say it is the same is standing up to your fears, from a different perspective. That is how come I can smile at the face of death. And look as though I enjoy the Idea of growing up. I can smile at anything and it can look sincere. I guess you could say I'm pretty messed up, if you do, I agree. 100%. That is all.

It Means Nothing If There Is No Connection

"Live as though you are going to die tomorrow, But plan as if you're going to live forever." My friend LeAnna came up with that saying and it makes more than a world of sense. But somewhere in the W.W.W. I found this saying "Deanna" came up with. It is, "When it is all over, Our lives will make sense." Now I am less afraid thanks to reading this. Afraid of death I mean. That is all.

Question for all Hypocrites!!!

Here is the situation I'm in. My parents tell me I  need to change my attitude when all I'm doing is using really mild sarcasm. And get this, when they say that they are yelling and giving me an even bigger attitude than what I ever gave them. Has anyone ever heard the saying Practice What You Preach? Because they have and I still get treated like garbage. This is the ultimate sarcasm right here telling your only daughter to change her attitude when she is dealing with the biggest hypocrites she knows. Them! So I have a question I would like everyone that reads this to answer. What do we do about hypocrites like the ones described above? I would very much like to know. A really big question yet no answer. Yet anyway. Thank you for your time.

Watch This...

I found a new anime TV series. It's called Samurai X  here is a link.
Samurai X Sn:1 Ep:1 

this link will lead to season one, episode one.

I'd say it is for a person who really loves anime and enjoys japan and its history. I barely know a thing about japan's history but I absolutely love it. It is a great story. And no matter what I watch I learn something new every time I find a new show, no matter what it is about. Because I pay attention to all the little details. Now no story seams to thrill me anymore because story's are so predictable. Well this is a good show so everyone should watch it. It doesn't have the best picture quality but it has a story line that cancels that out.

Live and Learn...

Living is easy.But what we do when we are living is what is difficult.

I came up with this. What do you think? It means, it doesn't take much for our hearts to beat but when we are using our beating hearts we tend to get carried away and think we can do anything because some things are easy and simple, like breathing and we try more complex stuff only to be disappointed in our ability.

Love...

I believe i figured out a perfect definition for what love is. Here it is.

     Love; 1) A dream or nightmare of which you fantasize of the possibility's only for those dreams to be crushed 2) It can also a simple and easy thing to deal with, when one can talk to a crush with ease and no difficulty is implied 3)It is like spices, hot on our tongues yet we beg for more, the "flavor" is satisfactory but the pain comes with it no matter how hard you try.

Of course, this is the three definitions of which i have come up with. Except, not all of them are true for everyone. it depends allot on the person you are evaluating. For different people will believe different things. Because they have different experiences. For i wrote these three from all of my experiences. And with just three boyfriends, you have to admit that these definitions have to mach up in some way. Stop and think before you judge my words. In some way everyone can relate to these words. I know what I'm saying if i am putting on the world wide web. It's either that or I'm just down right brave for admitting it. Anyway,think before you act rash, this is just my opinion after all. But i want to see how close my opinion is to your thinking. please tell me, I'd very much like to know.

Generations... Their Beginnings And Ends...

Every one is always saying things to get other people off their backs. One of these things is, "We are the next generation..." But I have a question for all who have said this to the people who were once able to say it. When does one generation end and another begin? Or do they all just merge in the end? That is all I wish to ask of you, Is for you to answer these questions. A really big question, yet no answer.

Why... So Many Lies...

What is wrong with the human race? Do we enjoy it when another is hurt? do we enjoy it when another suffers? We are always giving and taking lies. I for one am tired of all these lies. For it a crime to hurt another no matter what the reason. Yet I've been hurt every second I live. Because every new second brings every new realization that I have been lied to. We are children always being told to never judge a book by it's cover by our parents, and then they turn around and stereotype our friends without a second thought. It is almost like we need other people of our own species to feel pane in order for us to live. But I don't like how we do that, why dose someone have to suffer? We make mistakes I know, we are only human after all. And I hate to have that excuse to lean on. I want something that is less insulting to some one like me. I am not one who enjoys a flimsy surface to stand on. I hate... I shouldn't say it, but I will say this. I'm tired of the way we live, is it the only way we know how to live? If not can everyone please try to change it? I'd say please, but it gets you nowhere in life. That is why there is no point in saying it, for it is simply begging. I hate how half of hat i say has to be lies in order for me to get off a little easier. I don't like lies.

Where...?

We are born into this world. We die in this world. We are reborn in another, in heaven. Along our rout we are tested to see if we are worthy to be at God's side. I worry for many, I worry for myself. For if we do not go to heaven is it possible be anywhere other than hell? Well, in order to even be in any of these places, you have to have a soul. But, when we are born where does our soul come from? Are we another persons second chance at life? At fixing something they did wrong? Is it fate that we could be specifically chosen by one soul to harbor it and give it another chance? Where do our souls come from? Is it merely just a part of the parent's soul, or can souls reproduce as well? Where are we from? Is it possible for there to be a before heaven where all the souls that are needed for God's army to be created or stored? And being on earth is just training to get us ready for the after heaven, the one all Christians know of and speak of. Just to prepare us for a war started by jealousy. Are we the ones who have to fix Lucifer's mistake? If so what is to happen to us when it is all over and done, what if God is just using us? He told us that he has prepared a place for us for when the fighting is over. What is to happen to the first heaven? But most importantly, where are we from? Where are our souls coming from? A really big question, yet no answer.

Who Are We...

One thing that makes me cry is...

There are people who believe in aliens, vampires, werewolves, ghosts. there are people who do not believe in anything like this. Then, there are people who believe in it all. I believe in everything, because everything is born around some truth. You just need to find it. Vampires for example, i believe in. It could be that there really are creatures like that, but no matter what they are people too. If they are on this earth who are we to judge them? I would feel pretty bad if I were them, being judged like that. If anything I wish I could be one of them. Thinking in the way I do, we are just like them. Taking things from others that might never be repaid. I could be talking about a stereotype, but then again we always do that. We judge each other and hurt one another just to gain what we think we want. We are all selfish and foolish creatures who go behind our comrade's backs. I find it easy to be very ashamed of my species the way we are always so scandalous. I don't understand why we must do what we do. Take and take, but then do we ever give it back. We humans kill other creatures as a way for us to live, but who made it that way? Who said it had to be that  way? But that is not my real question. My real question is... Who, are we the human race, to judge anyone? A really big question, yet no answer.

World Domination Is Imposible

People have tried to take over the world. people like Hitler, places like Germany and Japan. Except they were missing a piece of information that could have saved them some trouble and even their lives. You see (Reminder, this is coming from a 13 year old girl.) they couldn't take over the world because it was already taken over. "By whom?" you might ask. Well it simple, all you need to do is grab a mirror. We the human race have dominated the earth and that is why they failed. Because they were fighting their own species, equally powerful creatures. An animal that has already dominated the earth. The earth cannot be overtaken if it has already been overtaken, none the less by your own kind. It seems utterly ridiculous when you think about it, what they must have done to manipulate themselves to make them so full of it. Do you agree? A really big question, yet no answer.

History... Our Future's Mystery

We, the next generation were always told to learn from our mistakes, to learn from the past. Well every second of every day new history is being made. So are we just going to keep cramming it down the throats of the youth? What are we going to do when there is too much history for the future generations to learn? Are we going to keep teaching them everything this generation is to learn and what happens after we are gone? If so then it would take even longer for them to get out of school, and if college is still a necessity then, how long would that leave them to live the rest of their lives after they graduate? A few years perhaps, when our generation will get thirty or more, they would probably be lucky if they get twenty five. Or in the future, are we just going to stop teaching about the things from the early years of human history? There are many options that all the generations of the future will decide on one day. But i wonder... if we were told to ask the really big questions in life when we were younger, then why do they just ignore us when we do, or treat us like we are baby's who just said their first word? I am thirteen, not two, show some respect. And in the end the question is left unanswered. This is one of those question. Is there an answer? I have no idea for I am just here to ask it. A really big question, yet no answer.